Can I eat my feelings? I want to eat my feelings...

Hey everyone!

Uugghhh .....

I just want to eat my feelings today.

The arch of my foot is aching today.

Like, it feels my muscle has a tight stretched feeling.

And I'm so pissed (sorry about the language) and IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY.

See! So frustrating!

It makes me so angry that I can't run, it's slightly painful to walk, and I have a race IN A WEEK.

UGH!!!!

My mom says that I should maybe consider not running but even though I don't do it as often as much as I should...it's become something I look forward too.  I like being "the running girl" at work, I like the shocked face on my friend's faces when I say what races I'm running, I'm proud of what I've done with running and it's become more of who I am than I thought it would.  And I think I feel like it's something that I can do that is helping my career (I hope to maybe break into fitness modeling...we'll see).  I don't know...maybe I'll have to stop...but I guess it's like if I had to stop acting...I'm not sure I could. Cut back? Sure.  Quit entirely? Not possible...at least now. I'm a bit selfish yet.

Sorry about the rant...I'll probably go talk to some ice cream about my feelings.

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Until next time, keep running strong

Actress on the Run

Good morning!

Hey everyone!

So, I am running a 5 mile race in two weeks...and my desire to run is kinda nonexistent.

Ugh.

I could make a lot of excuses and there are legit reasons (okay, one legit reason my knees are doing that weird achy thing...I'm held together by KT Tape y'all...no lie) but when do we stop making excuses and just work?

Running isn't even the only area I feel this, auditioning is feeling like that as well.  I feel like I'm not preparing as much as I should be because "I have so much to do".  Which may be true, but I should be able to balance.  Balancing has always been the hardest thing for me.

On a different note, I have a couple auditions coming up!  And I had some great auditions lately (haven't heard back but regardless I felt good about it so that's what matters).  And I have gotten more wedding stuff done! Yay! And I get to go home and see some friends (which will be such a quick trip...but people are worth it).

So maybe I'm doing better than I give myself credit for.  Maybe I need to learn to breathe and just enjoy a little more.  My goal is to finish the race in under a hour.  I think that will be plausible.  I'm probably gonna hurt afterwards...but it'll be worth it.

Okay, better pack some warmer running gear (CHITOWN WHY MUST YOU BE SO COLD) and figure out what to eat for lunch...and check for some auditions.  Have a productive Thursday!

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Until next time, keep running strong!

Actress on the Run

P.S.- If you follow my vlog I will have a video up within a week; I'm trying to figure out my subject matter better (see video entitled Focus)

P.P.S- I FINALLY figured out the title change....yay for finally having and appropriate blog title! I'm so tech friendly!

When and where

Hey Everyone!

Long time no blog.


So...running has been hard this week because of weather.  It's been SO RAINY here that I haven't gone out because I'm afraid of getting sick! Which made me wonder....

When is it okay to stop running?

I know that Runner's World would say as long as you feel okay and there's no lighting or weather hazards that you should be out running.  But as an actor, I need to make sure all of me is up to snuff for auditions- so should you run when it's chilly out and risk being stuffed up?  Is there a combo one can do? Like "it's okay to run outside as long as you have two hours to warm up" or something like that.  Does that even make sense?

I'm beginning to realize that the pull of being an actor and an athlete is going to be much harder than it was in high school.  When I was in high school and college, I had my schedule LOCKED DOWN. I was so organized!  And now being a real adult I feel like I'm floundering.  I can't even put out YouTube videos and blog posts weekly!  AND I'm trying to plan a wedding AND trying to have a social life? WHO AM I KIDDING- I'M NOT AN ADULT I JUST WANT ICE CREAM.

Slight weirdness besides, life is busy and good right now.  I'm feeling a little bit less "thick" so that is an improvement.  I'm trying to aim for healthy but that definition is fleeting and ever changing.  I guess I have to take it just a day at a time...but that's kinda hard when you're impatient like me.

I went home this weekend and got to wear my first ever running shirt and it was a bit of nostalgia and gave me a bit of a spark to start running again (which is convenient since my next race is in like 3 weeks!). It was nice to have a reminder of why I do what I'm doing...I only hope that everyone gets that moment at least once.

Look! It's me!

Alright- enough rambling.

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Until next time, keep running strong!

Actress on the Run