Hey everyone!
This is not a running update; even though I have a race on Thursday.
It's not about Letters To Antonio (which went really well).
This isn't about the wedding (which is getting closer).
This is about my body.
These are pictures I took today; this is my body.
This is the body that has run one half marathon and three 5k's with three more this year alone.
This is the body that gets on stage and performs and helps me become different characters.
This is the body that I've worked for but can work on more.
This is the body that has been under scrutinty.
This is the body that I go from loving to disliking in any given day.
This is the body that when I go shopping that I'll have a "good body day" and not get discouraged when things don't fit or the number isn't the one I want.
This is the body that has trouble accepting compliments because I can't compliment it.
This is the body that knows how to love people.
This body knows how to laugh.
This body is not afraid of emotions.
This body has seen a lot and will continue to see a lot.
This is the body I'm trying to accept when society tells me that I don't fit the mold.
This is the body that I'm trying to love even on days I feel unlovable.
This is my body; good or bad, it's mine until I die.
I know it's hard for people to truly be confident in their body; I struggle with it a lot. And I know it's hard to compare yourself to others. Don't. Be yourself and love yourself but also remember that it will take time too. One day you'll be able to look at your body and go "Damn, I look good!" And I hope that you start to believe people when they say your beautiful, because you are. And maybe you're already confident in yourself and love your body- to you I say congratulations! You've done it! But I do ask that you be patient for the rest of us.
As long as you're "healthy", happy, and feel content...you're the right size. If God wanted us all to look and be the same he would've made it so. So even if you don't believe it now, I believe in you. And maybe one day we'll all be super confident and completely change the world. I'm looking forward to it.
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Until next time, keep running strong!
Actress on the Run
Hey everyone!
Long time, no blog...and I've chosen a sunny day to stay inside and blog on my lunch break instead of run.
What?
I feel like I need to do something to spark up running again; in the past I've had to take a couple months off for recovery and for mental well-being. I know how I get and with certain things when I don't want to do them and I make myself do them...I get hurt instead of improving. So I try to listen to my body and my brain and decide when that break is needed. Is that now? I don't know. I've never ran this many races before in one year and I think because I have no pre-assigned game plan I'm feeling a little bit lost. Maybe I need to start working on strength training. Maybe I need yoga. Maybe I just need to buck up and do it but for today...I'm taking a break. I have my next race in 21 days and when I ran my mile yesterday I did it in 9 minutes and 48 seconds-not to shabby for someone who has fallen of the running horse. But I'll get back to it...I always seem too.
But this post isn't suppose to be just about my fitness crisis, no. I want to talk about my show! We open in 11 days guys and you should come! This show has been a blast to work on (I may be slightly biased though...because I love Shakespeare so much. The Bard might make me want to tear my hair out but it's always SO GOOD) and the cast is amazing. And I got to do some movement work in it which is exciting! Whaaaa- acting and extra stuff? I'm really lucky that the director trusts me enough to let me do that...it's nice. But if you want to come, you should check out the link below:
https://www.facebook.com/events/792259290887661/
That will give you details and fun updates!
Is there anything else I can talk about...or want to talk about...
I'm not sure everybody.
I'm not sure about a lot of stuff.
I'm not sure that anyone but family reads this.
I'm not sure that I'm cut out to be an actress.
I'm not sure that I want to become an actress by the "traditional" way.
I'm not sure that I want to stay in a box.
But what I am sure of is that I'm very lucky to, at this moment, be doing what I love to do and have a safety net of people who care about me. That might not be deemed "living the dream" for some...but I'll take every success that I get.
Okay, hopefully more activity and acting notes next time!
Until then, keep running strong!
Actress on the Run
