So, while I have no run to write about today I wanted to share with you all why I am running. Or at least some of my stories with running. Hopefully you can relate- maybe you'll be inspired. Either way I felt the need to share...so here we go.
Being tall I was always able to get away with being heavier. I am not overweight but I'm getting close to being where I don't want to be. Anyways- I've always hated that people said "Well you're tall you can get away with it." Because I can't. And I shouldn't. And it's not just a weight thing- it's a pride thing. In high school there were girls close to my height, maybe 2 or 3 inches shorter and they were a good 2 or 3 sizes smaller than me. And I hated it because it felt like they didn't have to work at it. But that is life and I remember the first time I really started being concerned about my weight; I was going to a casting call for a TV show for VH1 and I had to put down my weight... I was 180 or heavier (I kinda blocked it out...do you blame me?) and I remember being so ashamed. I was going into 9th grade...which is not an easy year the way it is. I started writing down my food and keeping a journal and while it helped until my junior year I didn't really get into the losing weight, but I did for my prom. And I felt beautiful. And then I gained it back, and then I lost it and now I am working on losing it again. Being an actress- I have to worry about what I look like, which kinda sucks but as of now...it's the truth. Hopefully things will change- Jennifer Lawrence is a huge inspiration to me...not only as an actress (she's fantastic, I would absolutely die if I got the chance to work with her) but as a human being. She seems so down to earth and if you read the caption with the following picture I think you'll understand why I like her so much.
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The first time I decided I was going to run-my dad didn't believe me that I was going to do it. Besides playing basketball, I never really showed much iniative for working out. But one day- I decided I was going to run around one of our sections near our farm (for you city folk- a section is 1 square mile so I was running 4 miles). While my dad had good reason to believe I wouldn't, my teenage self was pissed so I went to prove him wrong. It was long. It was slow. But I didn't walk...my jog got slow but dang it I did it. I will remember his face when he saw me coming over the hill-he was surprised but he said "You did it". And that was the inspiration I needed- I kept running although the idea of racing never came to mind until college. But when I ran that race- he and my mom were there, proud and so supportive. I run because something inside of me wants to prove people but mostly myself wrong. Because it is something I can control. Because when I run- I am running to get in better shape and because I want to do it. And that's why I do it.
Longer post this time...sorry about that. I think I'm going to be balls-y and post my blog link on my Facebook...so other people can read it (YAY!) Hopefully this at least gave you some background if not inspired you. Until next time- keep running strong.
Actress on the Run
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