No Shame Summer

Hey everybody,

It's June! Holy crow-it's been a long time since I've written, long time since I've been super active online too...hmmm.  Anyways-welcome to SUMMER! Humditiy, rain, sun, and all of its glory.

So...I went running yesterday and did a disappointing (in my eyes) 4 mile run (took me 50 minutes) but I did get out there and did it. I'm trying to figure out why I am running or more specifically with do I want to get into better shape.  The wedding is a factor, my job is a factor, but why do I want to get healthy.  It's something that I've been trying to figure out for a little bit now. I want to prove to myself that I can run a half-marathon...but is there a bigger reason for it?

My body image has been a thing that I swing back and forth on...I sometimes feel great about my body and then there are times that I just hate everything about it. Confidence is something I can fake very well-so much that I can even convince myself.  Part of me is scared of not feeling beautiful on my big day...if you've been reading this blog before you might remember my Christmas break down (my mother fears that this could happen again while we are trying on dresses).  So am I getting in shape for me, my family, for Mike (who keeps saying I'm beautiful but I tend to have trouble believe this sometimes), or for the greater society? Does it matter? Do I need to know?  I just lack the motivation....I wish I could figure what's placed me in this rut.  Maybe writing this will help.  Maybe I just need to say fudge it all and do what I want. Who knows.

One of the reasons this is weighing on me is because I just became part of this great page on Facebook called No Shame Summer .  It was a nerve racking experience but a liberating one at that.  I must say that I'm pretty impressed by my picture for the sheer fact that I look WAY more confident that I actually feel in that swimsuit!  But all of these people are super inspiring- it's a lovely reminder to be confident in what we have.  We might not be where we want to be, or we might be our perfect size but we need to be confident in what has been given to us.

Here it is!

 So this is this entry...hope you're all enjoying the weather and getting out there and getting it as well!  Let's help each other stay motivated...okay? Okay.

Until next time-keep running strong!
Actress on the Run

P.S.
Join No Shame Summer on Facebook at  https://www.facebook.com/NoShameSummer?ref=br_tf