Cold Weather

Hey guys!

Well-a little bit has happened since I last wrote; nothing much but it's something. I had a birthday (Woo! 24!) had an audition which felt good...so regardless that's good right? And I ran and danced! So...that's been my week and a half. Oh! And I got to go home for Thanksgiving...so that was nice. 

Anyways...run today! It was a short one but I must say it kicked my butt a little. Why? Ice. Snow. And I don't have grippy shoes so I was going super slow...or at least it felt super slow. But I felt okay because I was running to a dance studio to work on a dance I'm choreographing (I dance-now you know!). But while I wasn't concerned about my workout so to speak I began to realize that I need to make some changes mentally. I am not in bad shape by any means but I am not in "dancer" shape, which is important to me. What that really means is that I am lacking the flexibility I once had and the upper body strength I once enjoyed; this is not a hard fix though. But there is something else...maybe I just notice it more because I am one year closer to a "quarter-life crisis"...which I am pretty sure mine will probably last more than a year so hey, maybe I am getting a head start! 

But I digress- I notice that I am not as fearless as I once was. Running on ice? Be careful but still go full boar. Dancing? I was constantly throwing myself around, landing (usually) ungracefully but with a power and passion that made up for it. And I feel like its gone now. Not necessarily the passion and drive...but I am unsure of how to do this in an "adult" way. I know the damage I am doing to my body now so I am trying to keep it so I can keep doing what I want to it for longer. I don't know how to think about that...should I consider it like putting money into a race car? You know each week it's going to get battered but you just keep going and putting money in because it will still do what you want? I mean-if I had sponsors I would do all of it because I could afford to fix myself. Right now though...that's not always the first priority. That was another thing- should you invest in yourself first? I was at a briefing this week that said yes...but he was talking financially. I mean artistically- do I invest in my artistic endeavors first and then pay bills? How do I do that? I am bad at the paycheck to paycheck thing...I worked a part-time job in college on top of all my classwork so I would have money...I didn't understand how anyone else couldn't have a job. But anyways- these are some things to think about. I hope you all stay warm! 

I need to remember this-do you?

Until next time-keep running strong!
Actress on the Run